As I was cleaning out some boxes the other day I found an Elton John "Love Songs" CD that I have. So for the past few days it's pretty much all I've listened to - because I LOVE Sir Elton John. So, when I picked my Little Superhero from school yesterday "Your Song" was playing....and I explained to him that when he was in my tummy I sang this song to him and when he was a baby. I'm pretty sure he thinks I wrote it...because after I sang it and told him the name, he said "why did you name it that?" - because to a 5 year old, Mom can do anything! So, not your typical lullaby, huh? But I love, love, LOVE the line "how wonderful life is now you're in the world". Just because the moment we found out we were pregnant our lives changed. I remember telling my mom when I was pregnant that if I didn't believe in God, there would be no denying it now. To feel him move and kick was just the greatest experience. I had such a wonderful pregnancy....I loved it....as my mom says...when other time can you assist God in a miracle! And honestly I just sit in awe of my child sometimes - because he never ceases to amaze me.
Okay, back to my non-traditional lullaby. Do any of you have a "song" that you sing to your child? I got to thinking how weird it may seem that I chose an Elton John song. For one thing...I was born in 1982 - I grew up New Kids on the Block (not NKTOB). So Elton John was a little before my time. Well, background check on me: I am an only child of a single mom. So, I was raised on my mom's music...so Elton John is right up my alley! One of my favorite memories of growing up was EVERY Saturday morning I woke up to my mom cleaning with her record player (yes, I said record player...and yes, this was mid 90's!) blasting Carol King. Yes, I know all the lyrics to Carol Kings albums. I think it's neat that when one comes on the radio we both reach to turn it up. We are pretty amazing like that...me and her. Well, she's quite amazing. I follow right in her footsteps of picking non-traditional songs for our kids. Hers for me: "Superman" by Barbra Streisand. She sang this to me even in High School. Isn't it funny we both chose love songs for our children? That is one thing I can say without a doubt...I am loved unconditionally by my mother...it's such an amazing comfort to have that. I pray that my child feels this too. I know a 5 year old can only comprehend "love" to a certain point, but one day (like I can now) I want him to understand it.
You know how when you were in trouble or denied something you really wanted...your parents would say "one day when you are a parent, you will understand". Well, it's the same for love too. I don't think I could really understand my mom's love for me until I had my child. I think it's the same for my salvation. I explained it to our youth group this way once: "I have been saved since I was young. I've accepted Christ in my heart and I believe that God sent his one and only son to die for me. I understood this, I knew it, I thought it was pretty amazing - the idea of it. But when I had my son, my very own flesh and blood, the idea of the sacrifice was so much more personal to me. Because I look at you and then I look at my son, and then I look back at you, and then to him...and I know that I can't even conceive the idea of giving him up for you. I mean he's mine, he's my only son....and that's when I can truly understand and appreciate the amazing gift of salvation." Wow...don't we serve an awesome God! (and can you believe I got from Elton John to God in the same blog?!)
Peace Out! K